Coming Home: Healing the Mother Wound

2 years ago I followed the lead of my spirit  home to my mother. 

I made the decision to take the step toward healing, toward freedom, toward wholeness, toward love.

I made the decision to begin healing my mother wound. 

Little did I know that this was my soul calling me into the deepest healing journey of my life. And this journey would be the key to unlocking my greatest pleasure, the remembering of my magic, the reconnection with soul family. It would prove to be the key that unlocked my dharma & allowed my soul to once again do the leading. 

In September 2021, I made the decision to go home to Florida to see my mother for the first time in years. And the first time I would willingly make the decision to see her as an adult. That’s when I took this first picture. She was so happy to meet her grand pups!

It was exactly 2 years from that day that my mother would physically leave this earth. 

The magic of that choice & the moment I allowed to be created through me is profound. And it was just the beginning. 

 When I went to Camp Wildwood in Alaska for the Rewild Retreat this August, I didn’t have a specific intention. I had felt like it was the beginning of this initiation into matriarchy. I can’t even tell you how many times I said that. And I really didn’t know what it meant at the time. I just knew that it felt true & I was surrendering to it.

After my 2 weeks on the island, I had a road trip planned to see the women I love…my dearest friend in Missouri who had become like a mother to me, my mother & aunts in Florida, then on to Kentucky to meet my paternal aunt & grandmother for the first time. 

I just had this deep feeling that this 6-8 week journey would be the beginning of a new phase for me. I could feel myself enter the portal while on the island. And it was also on that wild island in Alaska that I felt myself more at home & in my feminine than ever before. 

I experienced triggers & opportunities to rewrite stories, to deepen my trust in my connection to the divine, to connect with Great Mother in new ways, & to learn to listen to my intuition in more embodied ways. I also experienced the feeling of being held by the cosmic Mother in a way I never had before. I felt so nourished & tender, like her child. 

It was while I was on this island, that I received word that my mother was declining. And my soul knew this was the beginning of her transition to the ancestor realm. I remember after receiving the news, I felt this grief begin to roll through me. And almost simultaneously, I felt joy & happiness! 

I was sad to feel my mother leaving this world. And I was so happy that I was sad!! It was a testament to my growth & healing. 

 Once I returned to the main 48, I began my road trip. On this journey, I experienced triggers around communication, safety, past abuse cycles, generational trauma,& opportunities that called me to choose myself in ways I never had before. 

It was also on this journey, that I met myself more fully. I died to who I thought I was (literally learned I have a completely different heritage than I had been raised to believe). And met pieces of myself that allowed me to deepen into the feeling of belonging & being home.

It was also on this journey that my mother passed. Exactly 2 years after we had reconciled…after I had come home. 

 I had released the cycles, patterns, & trauma from our wounding that was blocking my connection to myself. 

The blocks to my feminine power. 

The blocks to my intuition. 

The blocks to my connection with THE Mother. 

The healing & release of these blocks healed & released the wounds of my Maiden years. 

This journey was my final initiation into Mother.

 Healing the mother wound allows us to reconnect with our true selves. 

It allows us to connect with Great Mother. 

Healing the mother wound is how we find our way home. 

I’m so grateful to have found my way home to my mother in this life. 

I’m so thankful to have found my way home to Great Mother.

I’m so thankful to have found my way back home to myself.